I thought of writing about my experience once I’m all better, when I’m on the other side of it, when I can safely say, okay, I am in remission (I love that word: remission, music to my ears). But on the other hand, there may be value in writing this not knowing how things will turn out, when things are raw, when I try to push the thoughts away but am gripped by this thought, “OMG I don’t want to die.”
Hi, Helen. Thank you for sharing this with your readers. Sending you lovely music, good books, and warmth during your treatment. I also want to congratulate on your new book Wonderstruck. I was trying to get a review copy moments before your newsletter arrived in my inbox. So, I have been thinking about you :)
Beautifully written. I think that some cycle of hope, acknowledgment, and acceptance is a much more healthy approach than mere longevity. But, I know that for me at least, it’s far easier to reflexively give into fear than it is to really embrace those states in a non abstract way. It’s an ongoing struggle, but that alone is something to be thankful for. I hope you make a full recovery and soon.
Thank you for sharing. I'm cheering for you and hope you fully recover.
Thank you so much for these courageous words. I was moved by them. And intrigued by the poem: I assume the poet is the first name, after trans. ?
Thank you Helen for sharing this in such an insightful and moving way. I sincerely hope and wish you will get well soon! Hugs from Brazil :)
Hi, Helen. Thank you for sharing this with your readers. Sending you lovely music, good books, and warmth during your treatment. I also want to congratulate on your new book Wonderstruck. I was trying to get a review copy moments before your newsletter arrived in my inbox. So, I have been thinking about you :)
Helen, thank you for your wonderful writing. Best wishes for your recovery. You will continue in my thoughts and prayers to the mystery of it all.
Sending wishes you'll be playing that beautiful lute for decades to come! 🫂
Beautifully written. I think that some cycle of hope, acknowledgment, and acceptance is a much more healthy approach than mere longevity. But, I know that for me at least, it’s far easier to reflexively give into fear than it is to really embrace those states in a non abstract way. It’s an ongoing struggle, but that alone is something to be thankful for. I hope you make a full recovery and soon.
I'm thinking of you and your family Helen, for whatever that is worth.