I'm a little older than you, Helen. My children are grown (though still dependent on me) and my mortgage is almost paid off. I am approaching the end of my career. I have had a rich and fulfilled life and I am ready for my death. I am calm at the prospect.
I came back to England with the intention to travel to all those place in Europe th…
I'm a little older than you, Helen. My children are grown (though still dependent on me) and my mortgage is almost paid off. I am approaching the end of my career. I have had a rich and fulfilled life and I am ready for my death. I am calm at the prospect.
I came back to England with the intention to travel to all those place in Europe that I have not seen yet but my diagnosis got in the way. I am comfortable with that though. I have travelled a lot in life already and I've lived in many cities. It would be nice to see a few more places but the place I am in now is nice too. I spend lots of happy time with my family. It's like there's a special focus on happiness now and everyone knows it. Life is good.
I take comfort from Epicurus' observations. I've done all the things I need to do in this life. I'd really like to finish my degree and I'd like to know that my family are set to deal with life without me but, after that, I am comfortable with what comes next. The time after my life is over will be similar to the time before my life — as Epicurus reminded me — and I am relaxed about that.
I love music and I listen to Spotify all day every day while I am working. I have been doing this for 20 years and feel like I have heard all the music already and there's not much more to find that's new. What would it be like to still be listening to the same songs in another 20 years?… or 200 years?… or 2000 years? I think I will have had enough by then.
I don't think I would enjoy immortality and death doesn't make me fearful or sad. OK, wait. My wife and I often have days where we just want to snuggle up and love each other and cry together — but I think that's more crying for **her time** after me than crying for **my time** after me.
It's not my intention to try to change your mind about any of this Helen but I felt the need to share how my attitude to what is coming is different to yours. We all deal with it our own way.
Thank you Kevin, I appreciate it. I suppose in my more reflective moments I do take comfort from it. But I was so upset writing this bc I might have progression (or pseudoprogession) and I do worry if the news is bad, I'm going to go kicking and screaming (how unphilosophical of me! I somehow find I failed as a philosopher if I cannot take a properly philosophical attitude to all of this)
It's not easy for any of us, Helen. Philosopher or not.
I recently started chemo (I originally said I wouldn't) and I have a few extra symptoms that might be the chemo or might be the tumour. I probably won't be able to work for much longer though I am doing OK for the moment.
Kicking and screaming is OK too as Dylan Thomas told us.
I'm a little older than you, Helen. My children are grown (though still dependent on me) and my mortgage is almost paid off. I am approaching the end of my career. I have had a rich and fulfilled life and I am ready for my death. I am calm at the prospect.
I came back to England with the intention to travel to all those place in Europe that I have not seen yet but my diagnosis got in the way. I am comfortable with that though. I have travelled a lot in life already and I've lived in many cities. It would be nice to see a few more places but the place I am in now is nice too. I spend lots of happy time with my family. It's like there's a special focus on happiness now and everyone knows it. Life is good.
I take comfort from Epicurus' observations. I've done all the things I need to do in this life. I'd really like to finish my degree and I'd like to know that my family are set to deal with life without me but, after that, I am comfortable with what comes next. The time after my life is over will be similar to the time before my life — as Epicurus reminded me — and I am relaxed about that.
I love music and I listen to Spotify all day every day while I am working. I have been doing this for 20 years and feel like I have heard all the music already and there's not much more to find that's new. What would it be like to still be listening to the same songs in another 20 years?… or 200 years?… or 2000 years? I think I will have had enough by then.
I don't think I would enjoy immortality and death doesn't make me fearful or sad. OK, wait. My wife and I often have days where we just want to snuggle up and love each other and cry together — but I think that's more crying for **her time** after me than crying for **my time** after me.
It's not my intention to try to change your mind about any of this Helen but I felt the need to share how my attitude to what is coming is different to yours. We all deal with it our own way.
I wish us both serenity and peace.
Thank you Kevin, I appreciate it. I suppose in my more reflective moments I do take comfort from it. But I was so upset writing this bc I might have progression (or pseudoprogession) and I do worry if the news is bad, I'm going to go kicking and screaming (how unphilosophical of me! I somehow find I failed as a philosopher if I cannot take a properly philosophical attitude to all of this)
It's not easy for any of us, Helen. Philosopher or not.
I recently started chemo (I originally said I wouldn't) and I have a few extra symptoms that might be the chemo or might be the tumour. I probably won't be able to work for much longer though I am doing OK for the moment.
Kicking and screaming is OK too as Dylan Thomas told us.